May 19th, 2010
There’s No Crying In Bike Riding
Something happened last night on my bike ride with Hubs. We were riding with the TriKC group; everyone was very nice and polite but I was obviously out of my league. And, normally, when I’m out of my league I just make jokes and laugh to distract people from focusing on my lack of skills….but last night, none of that worked.
Last night, I felt like the annoying little sister to Hubs and his friends. I could tell he wanted to keep up with everyone but I of course went slow and held everyone up….well, not everyone, but definitely Hubs. There’s something about going up a super steep hill (barely able to push to pedal down, breathing heavy, and going about 1 mile an hour) while someone is staring at you that makes you feel crappy. I feel like I’ve made improvements in the running and biking categories but surrounded by a bunch of superstars all I wanted to do was leave. I wanted to get as far away from everyone (including Hubs) and cry. I know, can you say, dramatic much?
At some point Hubs must have noticed my obvious misery and said:
Actual: If you don’t want to do anymore races I won’t make you.
Girly Dramatic Translation: You’re right, you do totally suck at this triathlon stuff aaaaaand if you don’t want to do anymore races –I wouldn’t blame you.
When we got back from the ride we were supposed to run as well but as soon as Hubs noticed I was upset he threw in the towel and said we didn’t have to—which just reinforced my feelings of annoying little sister and I started crying. I have no idea what was wrong with me. Hubs, per usual, was amazing–assuring me that I wasn’t annoying and he loved me a million times more than biking OR running and that he never meant to hurt my feelings (which is one of the things I love about him.) On the drive home he was doing everything in his power to make me feel better but I just felt wretched the rest of the evening and was so relieved when I finally crawled in bed.
It’s no secret my love/hate relationship with triathlon-ing (yeah, I know that’s not an actual word) has been a little bittersweet. While I love how awesome I feel AFTER a good workout I don’t normally enjoy the triathlon workouts themselves—especially if I’m doing it alone (or with a group of superstars). Last summer Hubs and I were both new and happy to finish and our workouts were pretty in line but now that he’s progressing so much faster than I am I’m not quite sure where that leaves me….
Get it? Leaves me? As in the back of the back of pack? (yeah, I’m clever )


















